Yesterday after my run, the orange spray tan misted over my teensy body and I realized, WHEN TO HAVE ANOTHER KID IS STRESSING ME OUT!!! I'm buying a ton of stuff on etsy to put in our extra garage just incase. It's like, I want to get preggo, but I want to plan it, and I have tried here and there but I think I wasn't visualizing it bc I just wasn't ready, and I now I want to wait because it seems like everyone else is preggo and I like to be different and not do things just bc their trendy, but I want to be a young mom and if I wait much longer I'll be all nasty old and saggy, but at the same times, I HATE getting fat, but if I got preggo right now I would have a baby in the spring or summer again, which is just a hard time of year to have a birthday because you don't want them to be the runt of the class, would way rather have them go to 5 years of preschool and turn 8 in kindergarten so you can claim there just naturally super advanced, BUT, I also don't want to have a baby in the winter bc of RSV's and looking fat in Christmas pitchers.
WHY DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO BE SO HARD???