hyperventing

This is starting to get scarry!!! I am still seriously so blessed and way happy, just freaking out. JJWT just said all these things aren't 'neccessities' now that he is temporarily between jobs:

• my kitchen remodel!
• all my Christmas wishlist's!
• the nicer ipad i need!
  
• my entire New Year wishlist's!
  
• my half-birthday cruise!
• all the boot's I got my heart set on!
• he even forbidded me to go to any of my friends home-based business parties.! I can't go to any of them! ALL WEEK!
  
• all of this month's craft shows, maybe next month's to!
  
• hcg!
• anthro!
• all new scrappin' supplies, off limits!
  
• the next Brian Regan concert!
  
• the internet!
• and worse of all, girl time unless it's free! {is that even a thing!?}

the sky is literally falling

You guys, I do NOT say this lightly but am seriously ready to swear and cry and just take off my boots in dispair! Just don't understand why life keep's throwing rotten lemons at me. Even typing this gives me a serious bummer but this is my journal, and you do exist to validate me, so here goes everything.

deep breathe~ing...

JJWT just

got laid off
got fired
got let go
was terminated

moved on from his kickA dream law/biz/med/dental job. This means he is currently as of yesterday pre-employed.

Shrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriek out NOT in a good way!!!! As in this does NOT normally happen to hotties. I kept my end of the deal by not getting fat!!! Hubby's part is to be loaded!! That is doctrine!!!!! If even WE have a problem these MUST be the last days!!!!!! Why are the economies so mean??

This is seriously effecting me and my needs. My worse nightmare's all the sudden coming true: not only did I gain my first pregnancy pound today, also JJWT is getting all boring and serious and acting like wants and needs are "different" and it is getting wierd. It's like I don't even know him anymore!! He's talking crazy, like, might not even let me go to fetal photo's this week and could end up not waiting til the actual doctor appt to find out what we're having, sad. What is this, the great repression??? next thing you know I'll have to shop at thrift stores instead of just thrifting there.

:(

my roots

Bad news: my great-grandma just died, which sucks.

I had a hair appointment this weekend and
those are super hard to reschedule.

Why me?