circle of life

YOU GUYS! First off, in my last post i defiantly wasn't COMPLAINING! I was just SAYING! Key diff--say whatever you want as long as you end it w/ JUST SAYIN', kind of like no offence, it neuteralizes it so nobody can get mad, but seriously, I NEVER complain, I'm seriously so blessed, just wanted everyone to know that I COULD complain if I WANTED too since I have EVERY RIGHT to complain, if I was a bummer, which I'm definately not so I seriously would never.

Just sayin'.

Anyways, such a wierd filling that we are finally GRADUATING law/biz/med/dental School almost!! Am kind of freaking out!! Change is so wierd and brings all these mixup feelings! It's like when JJWT came home from the mish and I was exited but kinda missed having a missionary to whine about missing, or when I was all pumped about hair school and then it zipped by and seemed like it was over in like a year, or how I love my twins but also like going to the store without them to see if I get picked up on...LIFE is so CRAZY!! are JJWT and me seriously almost DONE with law/biz/med/dental school when it's like we just started?? Will I honestly not be in a wive's club anymore?? Do we seriously have ONE YEARS OLD KIDS when it fills like we are newlywed's?? THE CIRCLE OF LIFE! I want to stay a student but I also want to judge the students!! Sometimes how mature I've gotten since we've been in school weirds me out.

p.s. just found the CUTEST modest bikini for the graduation luau!!

Just like that song, some rise, some set, you know?

just bc I don't complain doesn't mean I don't have a super hard life

Okay, so I hate gripping but this is my blog:

NO ONE KNOWS HOW HARD MY LIFE IS! Nobody get's it. All the actual single moms think that they know what it's like for ME to feel like a single mom but they don't, because I have to support someone in law/biz/med/dental school and they don't! Unless they are IN law/biz/med/dental school but still, they don't take care of themselves like I do so they still don't GET it!

And, I'm just sickened tired of working mom's who say I don't know what there life is like when I'm actually busy-er bc I know for a fact they don't work out!

And honestly it's super hard for me when people who don't have twins but who just have there kids one at a time, even if they have nine, think they understand how hard my life is!

And seriously it's way hard when people who have twins think they understand what it's like for me with MY twins when they don't bc my twins are smarter then other twins so need more challenging play, and I have a standard of cuteness to maintain that they don't!

And people are always all "Well at least you have you're health" or "It could be worse, what if you got cancer?" but hello, if you have cancer you at least get sympathy!

Honestly, when it come's to everyone on earth, i KNOW what it's like for them but HATE when they think THEY know what its like for ME.

i heart earth

A TON of people have been saying "TAMNers, love you btw, what are you doing for Earth's Birthday? You're example means alot."

This has really made me burrow my brow in thought of what SHOULD I do?? I already hide my bottled water most of the time so granola's don't get ticked. Should I stop double-bagging all my groceries? Post more pictures of nature all ginorm so they take up your whole screen? Buy new bouncers and diaper genies and carseats and strollers and swings so I can recycle the old ones? Let JJWT golf more so he can spend time in nature? Take pic's of my kids playing with wood toys??? Carry around a baby sling more so people think I'm crunchier???

Seriously, I love thinking! Pondered all these Qs yesterday I watered our brite green lawn at noon, and then the other day while four-willing I realized look, I'll totally recycle when I remember, and that's enough bc honestly the earth's gonna burn anyways! LOL.

sometimes

sometimes

i

think about
serious stuff
like life

and
layers
and

blogs

and
style
and

truth

and

beauty

and when
i do

i show my depth

through

centering.

TAMN's inbox: you're letters, part III

Been WAY to long since I shared some emails from you guys! Here're just a few for you guys to help validate me.

First off, what's with all these grammer nazi's, seriously?? Every one has their nickers in a twist over the "contact me" part of my sidebar. Check out all these grouchy's, {all from different people};

I don't usually email people I don't know but this I could not let go. We all mis-spell sometimes but I think it should be "Hitting too close to home" with a double o on the to."

Hi there. "hitting to close to home" or "hitting too close to home"? I think the latter is the corret one. Just thought I would mention that.

I don't have a clue of who you are. But I will say this. I just stumbled into your blog and was embarassed for you of how you spelled "hitting to close to home" on your sidebar, just a heads up in case you want to fix it and not have everyone think your illiterate

Sheesh. All the to's just get confusing, which is why it is easiest 2 just start 2 use #s & symbols instead of words. Whatever. No one thinks I'm a literate. Quit studying for the spelling bee and go live your life so you have stuff to blog already!

THEN there's THIS one that made me cry, luckily I am a cute crier:

I had a friend recommend your blog a while ago and I am appalled. The way you talk about others makes me think how immature, self-centered and judgmental you are. I hope you change and become a less pretentious person and realize that you need to be less judgmental of others and more accepting and quit trying to change others.

What the heck?? Why would I STOP trying to change people when they have a ton to learn from me? IT'S CALLED SERVICE.

And finally:

you are making a fool of yourself. like saying how beautiful you are and how lucky you are. your husband probably just laughs at you. and for hiding pictures of yourself you must be real ugly and embarrassed who you are. little do you know we are all laughing at your blog and making fun of it.

Guys, is that true????????

self-reflecting on myself

hi guys! Been thinking tons!

About stuff!! This happens to me! When I wander up & down the store isles!

I start wondering and thinking and then my mind runs all frantic and deep like a wheel of hamsters and next thing I know I catch myself wondering all,

should I just mention again that I {heart} all types of fabric flowers,

in which I am in love with?

i'm so stress

YOU GUYS!!!

Sorry I haven't blogged in five days, who DOES that??? Swear its a record! Things have been honestly officially CRAZY, trying to plan our ward prom bc it's Lynzii's and me's first big thing and so all last week instead of sleeping I've been brianstorming how to really make it sPaRkLe! Combinning that with nuturing Alivyiah and Tridger and then me and JJWT have finals coming up, plus I have to train for my marathon AND facebook said training, AND whine about the weather = soooooo busy!! Honestly though, love it, wouldn't trade it for the whirl!

Just to be real so you guy's can all relate to me instead of being all intimated, listen to how behind I am:

• Ugh, only went to the gym four times last week.
  
• Haven't deep~cleaned my townhome/McMansion in seriously a week!!
• Even though I made dinner every nite each din only had two sides of veggies even tho our family goal is three each meal :(
• Last Thursday I seriously didn't even curl OR flatironed my hair.

♥ ugh ♥

Things have been so cRaZy!

Day before April Fools, JJWT woke me up in the middle of the nite and said all serious that he wanted to join the peace corpse.

I totally fell for it and just started bawling my head off! We both agreed to some pretty specific things when we got engaged {our divine rolls: my job was to not get fat and his job was to not get poor} and turning hippie was NOT in the dill. Sorry but a darling princess is not meant to be all grubby rastafary, so I called my parent's sobbing and daddy understood how ticked I was and even threatened to stop paying our mortgage AND cut off our living allowance if JJWT didn't stop talking crazy!! Didn't he know how long I'd been preparing for the challenges of being a dr/dentist/ceo/lawyer wife???? Ugh!!! Would my BOB even fit through any of the doors in africa or wherever?? And DON'T I DESERVE TO REMODEL OUR MCMANSION!??!??

Luckly before I had to throw any plates my brat of a Nuzzlenator JJWT came to his census and told me it was for fakes instead a for reals, April Fools! He started laughing so hard, I laughed too but was still kinda sad so made him take me to Cheesecake and and buy me tons of shoes til I felt better and he promised he'd never put anything between me and my lifelong dream of spending the next sixty years chatting, lunching, and shopping. Yay!

THEN after our mission reunion we had the most darling Easter and Conference full of tradition's, egg's, family picture's, craft's and treat's.

huge news

It's JJWT. Loosing in all 12 brackets I'm in made me get over myself. I'm dropping out of law/biz/med/dental school and joining the Peace Corps.